Contentment: a state of happiness and satisfaction.
Easily said,right? But we all know there’s a quiet whisper we hear in our darkest hours.
The moments when a word triggers your negative thoughts.
The moments when you run and run and run, to look back and only see that you’ve not moved an inch.
And simply the moments when your heart can’t handle the heartache anymore.
It hurts, a lot. You know the routine, we push it off and say it doesn’t hurt, as if it were truly possible to hide our feelings from the Creator of all. In denial, we hide in the dark, in our darkest hour.
Faithfulness: having or showing true and constant support or loyalty
If you were to ask me the faithfulness I experienced growing up, the first thing I would of said is the faithfulness of darkness. When life became tough, darkness would shortly follow me wherever I went. The darkness was loyal to me, but to say it was supportive would be the complete opposite. I questioned the existence of God, but cried out to him anyway,
“Fix this God..God take this pain, if you’re truly out there..somewhere… save me.”
Over the next few years, my prayers went from: “Fix this God, fix my life, God save me.” to “Take this pain away from me, God comfort me in this darkness.” and then eventually, “Merciful God, thank you for saving me.”
We must remind ourselves constantly that we are not alone. Though darkness is present, the light will always shine a little brighter.
I truly believe that it takes time, sometimes years, for us to fully began to grasp the understanding of God’s faithfulness.
At difficult times, we question where God is in our tragedy and why we must endure the hardships and burdens of others. But we should feel comforted by reading and reflecting on: Romans 5:3-4
“More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope.”
Character produces hope. Though trials come, we must find something within us that presses us on. We must believe that there is a purpose for our pain, and that God is greater than any darkness we may face. An easy way to put this into perspective is to consider all of the people you see every day. If as Christians, we were given easy lives, how are we to relate to those who are lost? The needy and broken would never consider consulting us, and to be honest, in return, we would be hesitant to begin our attempt of helping them. It may be cliché, and you have all heard it before, but it is incredibly true that God gives us trails and struggles to bring him Glory. Did you catch that? By experiencing hardships, we receive an opportunity to give God glory.
Ask yourself this question:
In what moment of my life, did I feel the farthest away from God?
Can you see it? Do you have a vision of it in mind?
We are quick in response of relating to our trials, but slow to seek where God was within them. I think at times we tend to dwell more on the absence of God, rather than when He has been faithful. We cry out in desperation pleading for God to come near to us, when all the while, we are the ones who are running away from Him. I have no right as a Christian to question God’s faithfulness, when I haven’t been faithful enough to God. As humans, it is by our nature that we are “I” oriented people, but as Christians, our lives are no longer about our business, but rather the Fathers business. For God’s wants and desires to become our own, we must remember His Will for our lives. The Will of God will never take us where His grace will not protect us.
As a child, I spent many nights in the darkness, but within that darkness I discovered a faithful light. I found comfort. I found Jesus.
Micah 7:8- “Do not gloat over me, my enemy! Though I have fallen, I will rise. Though I sit in darkness, the LORD will be my light.”
God replaces your fear with faith, your pain with purpose, and your obstacles with opportunities.
When you reflect on your hardships, struggles, and bad days, what will you see? Will you see burdens, or will you give God the glory? The decision is yours, choose wisely.